The Spider's Touch

Introduction:  The power of a song has the potential of awakening what has been held or stored in the subconscious and is a journey ‘beyond the beyond.’  The gift of feeling or clairsentience is a profound door once opened in remembering the Love and the power of the Light. 

Early in 2013 I was watching the local TV news when part of Dame Shirley Bassey's performance at the Oscars was briefly shown. The Academy Award show was celebrating fifty years of the James Bond movies and she sang the theme song from 'Goldfinger'. A number one hit in the mid 1960's!

Earlier in the year while watching the TV News, a brief part of Dame Shirley Bassey’s performance during the Oscars was shown and the Academy Awards were celebrating fifty years of James Bond movies.  The song performed was the theme from ‘Goldfinger’ and in the mid 1960’s was a number one hit.

A memory during my teenage years was with my father, uncle, sister and brother’s attending the movies to watch the first of many Bond movies.  One scene that would stay in my mind, still to this day, the image of young woman who was laying on a bed and had been painted in gold, dying at the hands of Goldfinger.  Following the news viewing, decided to watch the Oscars in full, purely to listen once again to the great voice of Shirley who, at the end of her performance, received a standing ovation from her audience.  The charisma reflected through her voice was both profound as it was powerful and at seventy six years of age, the tone or even bench-mark was set for all Bond movies that followed.  Themes of “good versus evil” and that the “light always comes through the darkness”.  One phrase in particular that stood out in the song and reflected the power of the written word, “the man with the lightest touch, a spider’s touch”.
Words and music, woven through the pen, fingers, mind and soul of the writer or composer, give the words of a song power.  Ten Andrews, an American shaman once wrote, “Remember that spider is the keeper of knowledge of the primordial alphabet.  Spider can teach how to use the written language with power and creativity so that your words weave a web around those who would read them” (Animal Speak 1999).  The power can come either in the telling and reading of a story, or through a song.  Children cannot always fully comprehend a story being read to them but what is taken in or activated in the subconscious is stored for a possible future awakening. 

The consciousness of my life’s path as ‘The Weaver of the Web’ became significant through a delightful story as my awareness and understanding grew.  Several years ago, witnessing a large white orb spider in the garden and magic comes in many forms.  The song from Goldfinger reminded me to share the story, for through nature, plants, animals and often the weather, assisting the learning of “The CrystaLoveLight Process”.
While sitting on the veranda, which was on ground level, a faint light shining from a room further along the covered space and noticed a very large spider’s web, almost a metre or two feet in size had been woven in the dark.  The web was supported by a beam holding the veranda roof and web was created between this post and a large bush in the garden.  The position of the web was perfect for catching smaller insects, also the leaves blown onto it by the wind, now being removed by the spider and drop into the garden.  The physical size of the spider suggested female, for the males are usually much smaller. 
Another characteristic of the orb spider is to build the web in the evening and remove it in the morning which may explain why I had not noticed the web during the afternoon.  While sitting in the dim light for over an hour, I watched in awe and could view this spectacle without disturbing her natural setting, “a meditation in nature”.  Describing the work of the spider to “doing the housework” as she attended to her home and remembering the consciousness of the ‘Great Web’.  A comprehension experienced on a number of occasions describing the enormity of this phrase

During the initial four years of living in the Australian bush, a rural environment without a TV, lessons and teaching were ‘channelled’ with or after encounters with the wildlife.  Both in the water as well as the earth consciousness and an understanding of the shaman/earth mother energy in the physical form was how the Great Mother taught.  Yet, another title brought into my consciousness was a “Channel for The Council of Light”, coming from the starry realms including angels, ascended masters, diva’s, the divine mothers, shamans and more.  An extensive list, many of whom I had ‘channelled’ consciously in the birthing and anchoring of The CrystaLoveLight Process.  The multi-dimensional soul travelling gift beyond the consciousness and enabling the ‘birthing’ of the I Am Body through the Great Mother. 
Through the consciousness of water, starry and other earth realms, an understanding of disempowering memories held in the ‘water’ are not separate to the other two realms where a soul has ‘travelled’.  The Great Mother Spider, as ‘gossamer light’ maps or creates and then weaves a soul journey through these pathways of light.  A journey needed for a soul in enabling the reconnecting and restoration of the CrystaLoveLight or I Am Body.  The souls who have a growing sense of ‘Oneness” may be challenged with the roles or titles which focus on a particular ‘channelled’ consciousness.  The disempowered masculine and feminine are just two of the non-physical bodies reflecting a separation story for the shaman’s or earth mother’s on the earth.  The imbalance or inability to flow with the LoveLight as ‘One’, reflects a body or part pulled out of alignment, therefore the ability to anchor or ground through the Heart Crystal of the Mother is not possible.   
The magical experiences of all awakenings during those initial years and the profound lessons through the Gifts of the I Am Body, are stories shared through a shaman/earth mother encounter.  The spider takes the consciousness to another level and by working in the dark of the night, the spider had a greater chance of survival for her greatest threat are birds.  Particularly the honeyeater, feeding on the various trees in bloom and displaying their sweet flowers.  By weaving her light in the dark the spider eventually was able to clean her web, also repair the parts which had been broken due the wind.  She was then able to travel out to the edge of her web, connect with a fly caught in the web and take it into the centre of the web.  The purpose of building her web, to be sustained by all the insects caught and consumed later in the night!
The spider, as with all creatures of the wild, reflect the delicate balance in life from the pathways created in the web and the journey that follows.  The spider’s central core web is the heart and what we are sustained by, discarding the rest that does not serve a soul.  The edge of her web reflects the great universe, solar systems and beyond.  An overwhelming memory and understanding the enormity of where a soul has travelled and that there is more than one web throughout creation.  Each represented by different dimensions, several vibrational frequencies, sun and moon energies which a soul can travel through once activated by sound codes.
The expansion and birthing through several dimensions opened a new awareness for me in those early years. The awakening came in many forms from seeing a space ship on the first occasion and some months later a mother ship right above my house.  Yet another activation from my mentor and her students who had an element of disbelief as well as resentment that I had the experience.  Working with sound, often outside at night I also witnessed six balls of light, bouncing on the tops of the trees some distance away from the house and the message, “the Angels of Light”. Living in suburbia often has human influences, however, there were no other lights of the town or homes within the area and confirmed the conscious awakening.  A totally different path was opening when I resigned from the music position held in a Catholic School and the intense ‘inner sounding’ I had time to work with was a significant key. 
The Great Mother was my teacher, providing all that was needed and what was required to see, know or feel was sitting right under my nose. The bird song being the sounds often heard before I could see!  My previous career kept me busy and away from such a space.  The very centre of my universe was also my home and where I began to heal my heart, remembering the Love, then opening to the Light. The event in New York City, remembered as 9/11, 2001, was the precise moment when I began to live without the distraction of a TV, consciously putting it in the cupboard, eventually giving it to a friend. The decision was significant for I was also preparing to submit my resignation with three months before the end of the school year and sensed a new beginning was coming. Two years later realising I had stepped into the Bullet Train and moved onto the 'fast track'. 
The Australian bush opened a profound consciousness with so much to see, hear, know and in particular through feeling.   Surrounded by the physical totems in my consciousness, on a daily basis, knew "I was not separate to their story".  All the spirit totems became my friends, teachers and inspiration.  A twenty minute drive to the beach awakened a stronger connection with all totems of the water and the ‘inner sanctuary’ of my personal space, home, the starry or mythical totems were consciously awakening.  Significant keys for my own reconnection to All That Is and in time, assisting others who were unable to open doors, remembering the potential when the heart opens. 
The knowing gift, combined with the experiences of soul travel, came after hours, weeks and then years of activations, followed by huge downloads of sound codes. Embracing in 2007 another title, ‘Soul Traveller’ when asked ‘what I did’ before embarking on my first trip, by invitation to Hong Kong.   Hence, The Keeper for the Creation Web of CrystaLoveLight, for the spirit totems became conscious doorkeepers for a particular gift within a specific realm! The necessary activations awakened the memories held in the heart and spirit. The totems of the earth, water and starry realms reflected the wounded-ness of my heart, spirit and therefore my soul. However, being multi-dimensional, they were also conscious vehicles in which to travel. Eventually understanding the greatest memory of all, "the separation story".
Beyond the consciousness is where a soul travels, rebuilding the parts of the CrystaLoveLight Body, broken, shattered or crushed in relation to the heart, (love) and the spirit (light).  The first major teacher, healer and ‘channel’, began a journey that would open my own gift as a ‘channel’ three years later in the seventh dimension.  Further teachings followed with my second and third teachers/mentors, also ‘channels’.  An amazing path, beginning three years earlier when handed the business card of a very ‘starry channel’, followed by the ‘earth mother’ teacher and the most challenging of all, the ‘Water Priestess’ mentor  who activated all the disempowerment possible.  However, through the consciousness of the water soon became the Source of Power and a significant key, the dolphin
The inner work took over my life as I began travelling to the centre of my web within my own home, focussing and discovering the key or keys in unlocking the heart door.  Discovering what served or more so, did not serve me in regards to my health, relationships and career choice.   A unique and profound path, not about the physical leaving of my home in going out to work, but ‘going within’.  The TV, internet, people within a close space, even living next door, may hold a great influence on my thoughts and actions. The response or triggers may come from the thoughts and perceptions of how I think things should be! The fears and belief systems held deeply within, beyond the consciousness may be the reason for certain behaviour, patterns in myself and mirrored by those around me, including domestic pets.  All the gifts reflect or are the mirror of what is being held, consciously and much more subconsciously. 
All four gifts will be a key for awakening the consciousness, feeling physical pain, frustration, anger or how I see and perceive the bigger picture. Hearing children at play and being irritated with their noise or the constant sad stories of friends, stuck in their grief.  Knowing there is more, however, the memories of separation keep the doors locked and bolted in discovering what the potential of LoveLight is possible when able to walk forward.  The Law of Reflection is a big mirror! Still shown today what I need to know, hear, see and feel in relation to the Love, Light or both. Blaming the other driver, my mother, partner, neighbour or the boss, are all mirrors and constantly ask, "what am I not seeing, hearing, feeling or knowing within myself"? Whether a family member or the environment, when can the part or parts of me be embraced, returned to the heart and the re-patterning begin? 
The personal living space, my home is a CrystaLoveLight Retreat Centre, reflecting all that is able to be held in a LoveLight vibration within the dimension of my physical body at this very moment in time. In choosing many years ago to be the facilitator of live-in retreats, soul travelling with individuals, also with groups, holding what is necessary for all who desire and are able to journey on the path together is an honour.   The sound codes through speaking words, singing, writing and drawing are actions which have brought great joy due to the doors opened.  The fulfilment of developing a gift and being able to assist others is beyond words.  However, the challenges of working through each dimension also has significant and necessary elements of activation. Being very conscious of this myself and therefore of the activations concerning others. The most challenging place regarding this ‘process’ is taking a soul where needed and the activations necessary for one to be able to move forward are enormous. Especially with mothers and their children, whatever the age may be, asking them to ‘trust’ the Great Mother.
Souls I have assisted throughout the years often ask when memories or patterns show themselves again, over and over, "when will I be done with it?”  Or something totally new may arise, coming from somewhere deep in the subconscious, reflecting the pattern of possibly another core soul separation story. Only now has the soul travelled to and reconnected with the part of their CrystaLoveLight Body which is able to be seen, heard, felt and known, within a new dimension. The soul is preparing for the birthing and anchoring through all bodies, both physical and etheric, the sum total called the “I Am Body”.   Similar to the journey of any mother, from conception to birth, for some an easy road to some degree and the major consideration that each birthing experience is unique. 
The higher and more expanded the dimension being birthed, the possibility of the story being even more challenging than previously experienced. The physical birthing of our gifts is not unlike a mother birthing, aware of what is being held in the fifth dimension to what is held in the seventh or ninth, all very different yet the same.  Hence, the level of assistance required but each soul will certainly feel the intensity throughout the process.  The focus of The CrystaLoveLight Process has led me on a totally different path with supportive friends and colleagues with whom I have travelled.  The activations leading to a sharing of deep core memories, assisting souls find their own empowerment through feeling, hearing, seeing and the wisdom held in a subconscious knowing, cannot be turned away from or go back in any way to a previous music career. 
The memories in relation to the gifts are one thing, however, the stories around the gift of being a 'channel' is another. The "spider's touch is the light", channelled through the hands of many therapists, however, the earth, water, and starry parts of a soul, unable to hold the light  in lower dimensions, equally cannot hold the love, for in the big scheme of All That Is, they are not separate. Can I see, hear, know or truly feel the power from where my soul birthed? The very central core of my web, returning to the heart so that the reconnection, re-patterning and finally, remembering the power of these gifts is held in the LoveLight of the I Am Body.  A conscious connection through All That Is when the spirit and heart merge as ONE! A simple gesture, a pat on the back or taking someone's hand in a moment of comfort, is a powerful tool when the 'light' is fully birthed. 
Recently I gave a massage to a young man, twenty two years of age and had worked with just once, eighteen months prior. During our initial session, simply laying on mattress for just over an hour the 'hands on' connection was not the focus previously and very limited in ‘touch’.  However, the second session with him was a very different story and understand, this young man was challenged throughout his school days as a special needs student due to his learning disabilities. In order to control his behaviour he was prescribed the drug Ritalin, also to assist his focus and concentration.  Still taking similar medication for this purpose as a young adult.

During his teenage years, he sustained a serious injury to an ankle, resulting from a motor bike accident on his home property. His mother told me she had taken him to a massage therapist previously but he would not go back. Understanding how any massage therapist, if coming from a place of working with him in the same capacity and process as they normally would be with most clients, it would not be beneficial due to the fear held in touching his sensitive body.  Firstly, his nervous system, already shattered, needed "a spider's touch" to assist him begin the journey of reconnecting and re-patterning of the separated parts of his CrystaLoveLight Body.
The touch that could only assist this young man at this time would need to be delicate, both physically and by opening the doors of his non-physical bodies, for all were totally separate. The session took me to another place in the awareness of needing fully to get out of my own way. How I approached the session was beginning to unfold consciously when I remember his mother saying, "he does not like being touched" and how she could not hug him over the years. His trust in me was a miracle even before I began assisting him on all levels.  The modality of massage was only going to assist this man if not “done by the book”. 

Numerous massage therapy sessions in assisting souls previously throughout the years was going to be different with the young man, realising fully where I needed to go with him when I first placed one finger on his back and he jumped. His reaction to this touch was extreme and it occurred several times in the first few minutes, each time working with my own breath, waiting for the moment when I could once again place my finger on his back.  The clock on the wall gave me the time frame for the different stages throughout the session and something I would not have been concerned or notice with people on other occasions.  The first stage was approximately forty minutes of activations, just by touch! Followed by the 'light' channelling through me into his spine, then he began to travel, (a sleeping state) through multi-dimensional realms and several vibrational frequencies as his nervous system began to connect.  Restoring and re-patterning in dimensions his physical body could hold, otherwise he would have been overwhelmed.
The nervous system for many souls is a huge door through which one is able to journey, returning the flow of LoveLight through the physical body and finally birthing with a connection into the earth, reuniting with 'the mother', Gaia! The gift of clairsentience, (feeling), is automatically moving from one end of the physical body to the other. As the LoveLight is activated through a delicate touch from the back of the head and upper area of his spine, a physical connection is made through one foot or both and with my feet firmly on the ground, the doorway or channel to the Earth Mother is opened.
During one soul travelling session, the nervous system is usually followed by another system and possibly more, but not this time.  In describing the condition of his nervous system, the term shattered is a conscious way of understanding the action of taking a crystal and hitting it with a hammer. The gentle and gradual process which follows the activation is in Divine Time for his soul as to the re-patterning, followed by the integration or resting period.  Overcooking the body is possible, just like a cake in the oven, with too much too soon therefore the nervous system being overloaded can lead to the fear of being overwhelmed.  The process continues as to the cake being removed after cooking and the resting period required before the possible next step, icing and/or consuming the completed product.   
The energy shifts through several vibration frequencies is a soul travelling through the non-physical bodies are doors where the emotional, masculine, feminine, mental and spiritual bodies have been locked or blocked.  The physical body firstly feels the energy shifts, expanding, just like a balloon.  Not a small party balloon but a very large hot air balloon which requires enough air to assist the balloon to take flight.  Enough LoveLight ‘channelled’ to assist a soul travel through several higher dimensions.  Therefore, waiting and pausing, so necessary yet automatic for a ‘channel’ through all four gifts.  Allowing the physical body to adjust to the shifts in vibration, therefore sitting for a few moments or a minute or two, the feeling or clairsentience gift, lifts me out of the chair and guided to stand next to the physical body.  The guidance comes as to where to place my hands but also the motion and pressure required.  Each soul is unique and so the time frame may be different, the key is feeling as well as knowing how to work with each individual soul.
An essential key for bringing the spirit (light) through the heart by the facilitators own conscious breath work.  The session on the massage table lasted approximately two and a half hours, a surprise for all who know the young man’s story, especially his immediate family. The follow up session would be ideally one month later, again a challenging timeframe for this soul but more so that he chooses to proceed over the long term.  The space between sessions is an ‘integration’ time for the adjustment required in the nervous system and similar to breaking in a new pair of shoes.  Adjusting from the old shoes or energy which no longer serve the ability to ‘walk on the earth’, safely and comfortably.  Asking his mother to assist during the time of integration and teaching her how to work with him as the parts of his CrystaLoveLight Body, once separate, continue to travel home.  Returning as Love and Light both, through his nervous system, simply by placing her hands on his shoulders with a huge focus on the breath.  Assisting other mother’s as well with helping their children be more grounded and it certainly varies depending on the relationship.
Reflecting on this article, beginning with the movie, “Goldfinger” and as a channel, can never be assumed or presumed where the messages will come, except to say from way out "Beyond the Beyond", deep within the sub conscious. The phrase from the song may have possibly been activated quite a few decades ago and found a place deep within me waiting to become more conscious.  Possibly activated when one of my teachers shared with me nine years ago that my Keepership was The Weaver of the Web. While there is much fear held around the energy of a spider, there was another occasion in my home in 2003 I share briefly with you.

After working through the night, soul travelling, sounding, the sun began to rise and lay on the floor reflecting on all that unfolded throughout the night. I noticed another very large spider on my wall, close to the high ceiling, observing that it only had seven legs, so asked “what do I need to know”?  The immediate answer came, “I have more work to do!”  One decade on and know, there is always more to work on but only when the soul is ready will the doors open to the consciousness fully.
The 'spider's touch' certainly resonates, "reminding me that the world is woven around us. We are the keepers and the writers of our own destiny, weaving it like a web….." (Animal Speak 1999) 
How can I possibly hold the LoveLight vibration within a particular dimension, the centre of my web, the core of my universe in my home is not possible if the ‘inner work’ is not attended too?  How challenging when out in the busy, distracting world with so much pulling me one way and another. 
The spider, taking all that she needed to sustain her (the fly) into the centre of her web, detached from all that did not serve her into the garden, so too, the gifts of the I Am are indeed a key for feeling, knowing, hearing and seeing what I may need to let go. My home, now on the Gold Coast, as was the dwelling prior from 1999 to 2005, is a place in which I offer and facilitate retreats in The CrystaLoveLight Retreat Centre. While asking for a bigger home with more rooms, am aware, or know the vibration I hold within my I Am Body, keeps me here in this space for the present time, until it all shifts, yet again.
Soul travelling assists the anchoring and birthing through the Great Mother.  A journey through the starry Spheres, Song-lines and Lei Lines for any soul ready to embrace intense retreat days, knowing they will have the 'ride of their life'. The intentions a soul brings to the retreat, consciously, are keys for the pathways mapped, the doors ready to open and the creativity possible when ‘channelling’ the LoveLight.  Reflecting on the stories which have in the past and continue to awaken my heart and spirit consciously assist in “remembering I Am That I Am because of All That
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